During my half hour drive to the Baker School, I started thinking about my understanding of teaching. I must admit that I considered my excellent primary education at schools in the town of Belmont, Massachusetts gave me sufficient background to teach any subject I encountered.
My assumption was incorrect. Taking my knowledge of the subject content, then coupling it with the pedagogical strategies necessary to inculcate the skills and knowledge required for my students to then be able to pass the MCASTS is not so easy. (MCASTS is shorthand for standards here). It is difficult. My attempts are woefully inadequate. HELP!!!!!!!!
I don’t know right now what exactly I have to change. This uncertainty is leaving me very scared about the prospect of three more months at this. How do you get the hang of it without appearing not qualified to teach?
This concern has sent me off on a research endeavor. As such, I am culling all my teaching texts, looking texts at Borders, Barnes & Noble, and Amazon to uncover the solution. Yet speaking to my cooperating teacher or my supervisor is dangerous, I think.
Is this a problem all student teachers encounter early in their practicum? I feel like a fish out of water, flapping on in the halls and classrooms of the school. I return home from a day at Baker, exhausted, the heat driving my to my bed to rest from my MS.
Anxiety and fear are swallowing me. How do I fake it to I make it? Perhaps next week will be better.
I enjoy the staff, teachers, and students so much. To finally be almost achieving my goal and becoming at MSN, and as such, to be considered a “new” professional with respect for the first time, not part of the support staff. YEAH!!!!!
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